Nostalgic- "a wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one's life, to one's home or homeland, or to one's family and friends; a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time"
The very meaning of the word is longing for the past... yet here I sit tonight, being nostalgic about the present. I wish I could use it to it's fullest extent. I don't want to waste one SECOND of my summer. I have, of late, become painfully aware of the fact that I will be parting my dear friends this fall. When I realized that one of my friends may leave to go across the ocean, I began to think deeper about it. I couldn't be happier for her, adventure at every turn. And I pray with all my heart that this works out for her, it would be SO fantastic. However, I selfishly wish she was only going to be a few hours away...
New adventures are amazing and fun, but I have never had to be parted at such a distance from such a close friend. Not this far anyway. Not for this long. I don't want to sound so melancholy, really I don't. It just comes out tonight. When I realize that my job will stop August 18th. That the little kids I babysit will find a new babysitter, and that... my brother wants to move into my room. (Which, I might add, will never happen) I am not against change, I welcome most change. Tonight though, the thought of change brings about a deep longing for the present. A deep longing for things to NOT change.
Tonight, I am a afraid, I am being terribly nostalgic for right now.
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